Showing posts with label American experiences. Show all posts
Showing posts with label American experiences. Show all posts

Monday, November 13, 2023

 II Desperation: War and Heroes

In April 1969. 
High School is over for me,
But not the war that took a friend
I used to wrestle in school.
Coach knew Frank was meant for trouble,
Like a puma refusing to be caged,
Restless and reckless.
But he won many matches for the team. 
I only won one all year on the B squad.
Frank encouraged me and helped me make moves.

And then, he went to war, Vietnam,
And the rest is not a dream, but a horror from far away.
Where leaders went insane at the price of the men they led.
A squad leader on a mission to assess the damage done;
A B-52 bomber strike at Dau Tieng.
Sergeant Saracino, a point man with hand grenades and a gun.
Pull the pin and launch it upon the bunker of the other side.

Perhaps wrestling moves raced through his mind, which one to choose?
Switch reversal would be good in this clash.
Life passes in a flash.
Double leg takedown, spawl, fireman’s carry.  Save your men,
Throw the grenade at a bunker, stall them ‘til the period ends.
A headlock would help here. Try to pin them down.
Allow your men to withdraw.
The enemy fire machine guns, bullets like swarms of bees.
How to flee? Switch, whizzer, sit out.  Face to face,
Are full Nelsons and choke holds legal on the battleground?

The air is full of war: grenades and screaming guns
Exposed to a hail of bullets, Sergeant Saracino, a master of takedowns,
Placed suppressive fire on the enemy until his comrades
Reached a safer space.  Is that the bell or the door to hell.
And did we win the match? Who could tell, each side took its toll.

The world is brutal clatter: and does it really matter?
Air strikes from above and machine guns rattle on the ground
Both sides desperate now, crazed only to win.
No referee can be found to stop this thing.
All the rules have been shattered, and does it really matter?

Frank charged again in a one-man assault
Upon a bunker, killing its two occupants with hand grenades.
Perhaps he thought: It’s not my fault.
To hell with earthly crusades.  No worries, end of story.

Then somewhere a heavy caliber gun fired on the platoon.
In the smoke of doom, Frank saw his men open to the deadly volley,
He exposed himself to save them by engaging the hostile fire,
As he strove to throw one more grenade.
at the machine gun emplacement, he was killed by the enemy barrage
“Sergeant Saracino's extraordinary heroism and devotion to duty, at the cost of his life, were in keeping with the highest traditions of the military service and reflect great credit upon himself, his unit, and the United States Army.”

Frank, destined for trouble, won the match, and died in the rubble.
But both sides lost the war. Did we learn anything?
All the rules have been shattered, and does it really matter?

C. S. Cholas
12 October 2023


 

Salsabil: (softly flowing river)

Qur'án: 76:18: "From the fount therein whose name is Salsabíl (the softly flowing)."

 Expectation April 1969 Fort Collins, Colorado. 

High School is over for me,
A sweetly strange mood hovers over the air
That lingers from a recent dream.
I stand on the street curb in front of Hickman’s for Men
Looking across South College Avenue
To a campus lawn across the street
It’s my timeline: past, present and tomorrow.
I sense something is going on.
Beyond the war in ‘Nam
Beyond Racial hatred here in my homeland.
Something is going on quiet and deep.
Deeper and beyond what is going on.
Something great is moving in, penetrating the soul.
As I stand
in front of Hickman’s for Men
(The store where I bought my Scout uniform.
Years ago in junior high.)
Ethereal voices, a few compressed into one Speech,
Serene, faintly heard somewhere press behind me.
I sense the transcendental Presence of the eternal Essence.
I wonder if those around me feel it too. 
 

I watch an African woman, stately and noble,
Cross South College Avenue
She wears a long, vibrant kaftan
With a matching head wrap,
She crosses the avenue with two large books
Balanced on her head.
Her posture is straighter than anyone
You could meet in my hometown. By her looks
She is beautiful, elegant, and chaste.
I only know she is African, but I am too naïve
To distinguish between tribes and the kingdoms
They once reigned.
She crosses the avenue like a mirage,
Like a soft flowing stream rushing to paradise.
Do I really see her floating by in the spring air?
Maybe this is why I am here, 
Should I follow her and see if she might be a link?
She reaches the other side only to fade away.
Past stale, old buildings, as if she is only a blink
Misplaced in the stroke of another spring day.

Something will happen if I stay aware.
Deep to the bone, a sense, and a whiff in the air.
That the world is to be changed.
It is not clear what, when, 0r where
The restless moment when the world is rearranged.
I am young and think in momentary events
That strike quick like lightning or an atomic blast;
Impulses that bolt fast into life without premeditation.
I watch traffic pass by
Thinking a sign will burst across the sky
Escorted by fire and a heavenly choir.

I watch a car pass by filled with noisy, young men.
The windows are down, and loud music disturbs the mood.
From inside the weathered car, The Beach Boys’
“Two girls for every guy” blares out of old sedan.
The “Girls are made for sex” music of the day.
Not the holy voices I expected to hear.

C. S. Cholas

October 8, 2023
Memory from 1969

 

 

Wednesday, November 2, 2022

 Remembering the Street Preacher

      In the spring semester of 1974, I neared graduating from Fort Lewis College in Durango, Colorado. Surrounded by mountains, Durango is set along El Rio de las Animas Perdidas"  (The River of Lost Souls) supposedly named by an early Spanish explorer. I lacked two courses to have enough credits to earn a BA in Psychology.  One afternoon while chatting with my most respected professor, Dr. Leland Stuart, he told me that he would be taking a Sociology class to Richmond, Virginia as part of a special Sociology Urban Studies course. He confided that the course was actually to study institutional racism. That sounded remarkably interesting to me. Students from Fort Lewis would join a class from Concordia College in Minnesota and a class from Virginia Union University in Richmond, where the course would be held.  It was tempting, but my wife was pregnant with our third child, and leaving the family for a month didnt seem like a timely thing to do, but it was a rare opportunity to explore the Deep South, something I had wanted to do for a long time.  My wife acquiesced and encouraged me to take the class. 

     In May our small group set out over the beautiful Colorado Rockies on our way to meet up with the Concordia class with a rendezvous in Madison, Wisconsin.  Dr. Stuart (who preferred us to call him Lee) drove the rented station wagon.  Participants in our Fort Lewis College included Smokey, a cheerful white guy always in learning mode, and Rita, an Inuit indigenous student from Alaska. 

    Lee had arranged for us to include extra travel days before the course and also for our return trip.  He had a few planned stops along the way, such as a drop-in center for homeless men in downtown Denver, and visits to Mount Rushmore and the Crazy Horse monument in South Dakota. In Madison we connected with the Minnesota students-- four black students, one of whom was a woman from Ethiopia and two white students along with their faculty advisor, a dynamic African American woman and Sociology professor, who arranged for us to have lodging in a YWCA hostel for women only.  I and two African American male students from Concordia, had to sneak into our room at the YWCA without being caught. My roommates came from south Chicago and I remember that it felt awkward at first trying to get to know one another in the small room; we were coming from completely different cultural worlds.  

     The Concordia class had rented a large van and one of the white female students would spell the driver from time to time.  She had had a bicycle accident just before leaving for the course, and she still had a few bruises and a large bandage above one of her eyes. 

    Stops along the way continued, now with our two vehicles in tandem-- an experimental school in Kalamazoo, Michigan; a wonderful night in Toronto; an extraordinary rest stop on the Canadian side of Niagara Falls and back into the US.  Things got interesting in Syracuse: We had hospitality waiting for us with a professor friend of Lee's near Amherst, Massachusetts and we needed to speed up our travel.  In Syracuse, we stopped for gas and to use the restrooms.  We were 20 minutes out of Syracuse when poor Rita, our native Alaskan, realized she had left her purse in the gas station restroom with all of her money in it, all cash.  Though we knew it would be unlikely the purse would still be there, we felt the need for Rita's sake to return to the station in the hopes that some kind person had found and given the purse to the manager for safekeeping.   In the days before cell phones, we could not alert the other car about what was happening, so we had to pull over and wait for the van behind us to do the same.  After a brief consultation, the decision was for all of us in support of our dear Rita, to go back to the gas station in hopes of Rita's purse and money still being there.  As we started to leave the toll road at the next exit, we suddenly found ourselves surrounded by police cars flagging us over.  What now?  The reason quickly became clear:  This was in the days of the Patty Hearst and the Symbionese Liberation Army.  Apparently, someone had called the police to report a van carrying an interracial group of passengers and a blond woman driving with a large bandage over one eye.  Very suspicious.  Everyone in the van was asked to get out and produce identifications.  The poor driver had left her ID in her suitcase packed in the back of the van. The baggage had to be removed and the ID produced.  It seemed our faculty professors were able to convince the police who we were, and after verifying our identities, we were free to leave.  The officers were all polite, calm and none of us got shot.  This unexpected stop had delayed us returning to Syracuse for Rita's purse.  She was feeling worse than ever, having forgotten her purse in the first place, and we consoled her not to worry; even if her purse was gone, things would still work out.  We made it to the gas station and Rita dashed out of the car and into the restroom.  She came out with the happiest smile a person could possibly have-- her purse was where she had left it and nothing was missing.  We gave her hugs and happy shouts of joy.  We continued our ride toward Massachusetts in giddy glee of laughing and retelling our encounter as members of the  Symbiones Liberation Army and referring to the driver as Patty for a while.

      The seminar facilitator (whose name I have forgotten) graciously welcomed us upon our arrival at the campus of Virginia Union University.  As we began unpacking other staff members came to welcome us. We quickly noticed that staff members addressed one another by their appropriate title: Dr., Mr, Miss in a formal way.  My sociology professor and friend, Lee, became Dr. Leland Stewart, which was enough to raise my eyebrows.  In our western frontier Fort Lewis College, titles were acknowledged on written things, like research papers and faculty directories, but once a professor became familiar with a student the relationship usually shifted to a first name basis, except when addressing old, tenured professors who preferred formality.   At Virginia Union addressing faculty members, we were told, was a traditional form of respect.

      Regrettably, I did not take a camera and cell phones were not on the market yet.  Though I still see many of the participants' faces in my mind's eye, I do not remember most of their names.  Somewhere I have the journal I kept for to course and travels, but after several moves, I have not come across it in a long time. 

      I had met one of the Virginia Union students before.  Don had attended a quarter at Fort Lewis College in the Fall of 1973, and we had become friends at that time.  We also had the Bahá’í Faith in common, and Don attended some of the Bahá’í College Club activities while he was in Durango.  Don came from the North and had been a vocal activist in Race and Civil Rights issues.  He engaged passionately in all the class sessions.

     During the opening orientation session faculty members and students spent time learning about one another.  It was at that time I first became acquainted with Rev. Linwood Corbett (Sr) who was introduced at "the Street Preacher" for his on-going civil rights activities in Richmond.  He combined fiery confidence in his views with a respectful bearing towards the opinions of others in the class. Most of all he was a steadfast advocate for people of color and for all people suppressed by racism and inequality.  The Seminar coordinator showed marked respect toward Rev Corbett, confirming how often he was willing to be a voice of justice in uncomfortable settings in a racist city.  Linwood's integrity was certain, and I always listened more intently when he shared a point, because it clear that he lived what he was talking about.  For someone like myself growing up in rural Colorado, still naive in my understanding of the extent of systemic racism, I looked to Linwood as a mentor. 

      The Urban Studies seminar took us on a journey of fluctuating settings and emotions.  Through the several weeks of the course, we had stimulating discussions that sometimes-included clashes of different opinions that evoked strong emotions, sometimes leading to tears being shed.  However, we were never left down and miserable, but sometimes uncomfortable, yes.  We learned what most of the VUU students and the two guys from south Chicago already knew; how institutional racism was ingrained into our American democracy in all aspects of life, from voting laws, gerrymandering of districts, policing practices, prejudiced education and health systems, biased employment and banking practices, racist housing policies, and legal systems that were not equal for all. Basically, slavery never really ended; it just took different, perverted turns, like Jim Crow laws.  But we also looked at the positive influences of black culture on music, literature, and the arts.  We learned of the many, often overlooked contributions to science and progress by African Americans from throughout world history and throughout our own country's history.

     Excursion complemented our classroom activities, including two days in Washington D.C. One highlight for me was going to see the Micki Grant musical, Don't Bother Me, I Can't Cope at the Ford's Theatre. 

     Personal time was provided for us to explore areas of interest.  I enjoyed interviewing a number of students and faculty members to find out what their experiences and views were. Most of those I spoke with shared how the trans-generational effects of slavery continued to be embedded in their lives, directly or indirectly. 

     The most special time for me during the entire Seminar was the opportunity to spend an afternoon with Rev. Linwood Corbett.  We had been able to get to know each other better during the course, and I felt honored when he invited me one day toward the end of the seminar to go to his home.  I do not clearly remember how we reached his neighborhood, but I remember walking and talking along the way.  As a polio survivor, I wore leg braces and used crutches to move around.  Linwood was expressing with fervor that he did not feel that black people working with white people on race issues had accomplished much.  He wondered if it would be better for blacks to work in their own black communities, building a strong black identity to push for the rights of people in the black communities; and if white people sincerely wanted to be part of a change in dealing with racism, they should do so in their own white communities,   I remember saying that I could see his point, but I also strongly felt that interracial efforts needed to be a part of any effective change in dealing with racism in America.  As we were bantering this point, we were walking past an elementary school and it must have been recess time, because many children were running around on the playground.   I'm not sure what it was that caught the attention of the children, all African Americans-- maybe seeing a white guy walking with crutches together a black man they may or may not already have known -- but suddenly all the playground activity stopped, and the eyes of the children stared at us.  I ventured to suggest, nodding with my head toward the children, that maybe they were the reason we needed to work and be seen together, black and white. As long as both races were sincere and clear in their purpose of gaining true racial unity.  Linwood gave a kind of "maybe" nod as we continued past the playground, and the children returned to playing and shouting. We agreed that there was so much to do to change America, an overwhelming task.

     Our stroll soon came to Linwood Corbett's home.  As the door opened into his living room, the first thing I noticed was a large poster of Dr. Martin Luther King Jr.  The second thing I noticed was that there was person fully dressed up as a vibrant clown in the room.  Linwood introduced me to his wife and she, with her painted, clown face with the bright red nose and wiry hair and that huge smile lovingly greeted me.  She was on her way to being the clown at a community program.  Linwood and I continued our conversation in a hopeful sort of way.  I felt relaxed and at home and was in no hurry to rush back to campus.  We took our time returning to campus; our talk became more relaxed and personal. 

   The stroll together enraptured in serious dialogue; the children's' reaction to us passing by their playground; facing the large poster of Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. as we entered the Corbett home; and meeting Mary Corbett, transformed into a colorful clown, whose presence filled the room with a burst of joy-- the culmination of all I had been learning during the Urban Studies seminar. I had experienced to a small degree proximity to disease of racism.  I had started my own narrative of experience on the issues.  I still had hope, and I believed I was willing to be uncomfortable when seeking justice and speaking truth.  All that would and has been tested over the years since 1974.

     Our journey home through the South gave us further chance to understand what was really going on in our county. 

We are a racially diverse group including an Inuit student from Alaska. After spending a night in New Orleans with its gumbo, Bourbon Street jazz and raucous nightlife, we drive through the lush and humid Louisiana countryside and reach the small town of Ama, where Lisa is from. The air is a rush of elation when Lisa appears from the van and is met with shrieks of excitement by her family. Joyful tears announce that a family member has come home. After greeting Lisa’s family members inside the house, I go back outside with a couple of other students in our traveling group to let the family celebrate the moment.  On the porch we meet an older man known as Coon sitting in a chair. A young man with little, green-tinted glasses wearing a circular straw hat sits by his side on the porch itself. We enjoy a brief chat.

“Gotta make peace with the Master.” The elderly one says.  The day is heating up and they are hoping the morning on the porch will keep them cool for a while. “Prices getting’ high,” old Coon continues, “can’t hardly buy nothin’, but I know the Lord’s watching.  Turn to Him and everything be all right.”

            That’s what the old one kept talking about on the porch: the porch of the house he made, bypassing lumber yards and going straight for the trees he made it from.

            “Gotta make peace with the Master,” the younger one with the round, straw hat and little green tinted, wire-rim glasses says.  “Old Coon can talk two weeks about making peace with the Master,” he laughs.  “Old Coon’s something else.”

            Coon greets a passing neighbor, Riley, who responds with, “Morning Coon.”

            “Riley, come on over ‘n’ meet the gang.  Lisa’s home.”

            “Yeah,” Riley says cheerfully, “Well sure, I’ll come right over.”  Riley greets us from the front yard and then begins talking with Coon. 

            While the older two are visiting, the young guy in the straw hat says, “Coon never used to be so much for the Lord ‘til right before he hurt his leg. ‘Bout ten years ago.  Since then, everything’s for ‘the Master’.”  He laughs, but his manner reveals a quiet respect for old Coon.

            Coon says, “Come on in, Riley.  This here’s some of Lisa’s friends from school.  They from Minnesota ‘n’… ah… Colorado.”

            “Well, that’s shore nice,” Riley in his blue work pants and grease-spotted shirt steps up on the porch and greets us, “Shore nice having ya here. Kinda hot here in Louisiana ain’t it?”

            Coon struggles to stand up hopping about on his good leg and welcomes Riley, with one hand holding the back of a chair for support on his bad leg side. Riley moves slowly and drawls out, “Well, that’s shore nice” which he says after anything anyone says, or “Well, that’s shore is something’” whether the talk is sad, or some new gossip is being shared. Then he goes on into the house to meet the others and to give Lisa a hug.

            Lisa’s family is surprised and thrilled to see her, and the house is filled with joyous laughter and chatter.  A couple of the women start rushing about to bring out iced tea and snacks. Lisa had not been able to announce her visit beforehand, and the suddenness of her arrival creates a festive feeling. 

            That joyful suddenness gives way to another, different kind of suddenness when two social workers, a man and a woman, drive up and insist that they need to meet with Lisa’s grandmother about her welfare status.  No, they cannot come back another time; it’s the annual renewal for her benefits. The one blurts out.  The other tries to soften it by swearing it will only take a few moments of the grandmother’s time.  The air stops and feels heavy and sad as a silent scream of resentment flows through the house, but the grandmother is very patient and acquiesces to do the interview in the living room while we move to the dining area. I sense that the grandmother has been in this situation before and knows the routine.  Be tight-lipped and play the game, or risk losing what little benefits you might be entitled to.   

            The two sociology professors are checking their watches and indicate we have a long way to go to reach Lake Charles before nightfall where we will stay with another student’s family for the night.  Lisa is home now and can catch up with all the news of her family while she’s been away to college.  We each give Lisa a farewell hug and interrupt the interview to thank her grandmother for the hospitality.  Outside, Coon sits alone on the porch chair.  Riley and the young man with the green-tinted round glasses and straw hat are no longer there.  They slipped away when the social workers arrived.  Coon looks peaceful with no sign of anger, resentment, or discontent. Everything will be okay. He’s made his peace with the Master.

    Our last night with the Concordia group was at Lake Charles, Louisiana, where one of the Concordia student's family had a plush lake side home.  I stayed up most of the night conversing with the two guys from Chicago. Unlike the stiffness we felt on that first night we had met in Madison, our hearts could spoke more freely now.  

      The time with Reverend Linwood Corbett Sr. has stayed in my heart and mind ever since. I'm perplexed with myself that I didn't make more effort to stay connected with him.  I certainly have kept him in mind wherever we lived. 

     Once out of college that Spring, I was hired as a county welfare caseworker serving old age pensioners (Colorado's term), persons with disabilities and families in a mostly Latino community.  The smelter had been closed for a number of years leaving many families with unsure futures, forced to live on government welfare and food stamps with all the stigma that went with it.  My family and I moved into that neighborhood and we enjoyed being part of that community for several years. My boss had been a welfare rights activist in St. Louis and had brought his values to conservative Durango.  We organized poor people, stood up for the rights of nursing home residents, worked with self-help groups in the Latino community and felt hopeful for progress.  However, the director was fired after five years of being a "troublemaker."  He had stepped on too many toes, especially prominent doctors not used to be called to account.  I saw the writing on the wall and, along with another community activist, resigned.  I did stay in touch with the self-help groups I had worked with, and at least one of them-- a group of older citizens who did fund raisers to pay for dental work not covered by government programs-- last several more years as a self-help group. They were able to find a couple of dentists willing to lower prices on dentures and dental work, making their funds go farther in helping more people.  

      Twice I had opportunities to spend several months in small communities in North and South Carolina working on race unity projects sponsored by the Bahá’í Communities in those areas.   At times while walking and talking with others in a village,

I would suddenly remember strolling past the schoolyard with the Street Preacher.  In those times, I even thought about heading up to Richmond and trying to connect with Linwood perhaps to share some of what I was learning in life and thanking him again for kindly mentoring me the struggle for racial justice.  Some wishes maybe are not meant to be fulfilled. 

     The civil rights movement for people with disabilities was in full swing with demonstrations, protests, and sit-in around the country.  In San Francisco, a sizable group of people with disabilities, even some who were quadriplegic took over the Federal Building for twenty-eight days.  Groups like the Black Panthers brought in bedding, food and medical supplies until the 504 legislation was finally implemented removing barriers to government buildings such as schools, health clinic, and government offices and facilities.  It took another twenty years for the ADA to be signed requiring disability access to public places and programs, employment accommodations and removal of other barriers that excluded persons with disabilities. 

     For most of my working years, I worked as a disability advocate, but I also desired to experience life outside of the United States. Starting in the 1980s we my wife and I and our six children moved to the island of Puerto Rican Island of Vieques for four years.  I was able to visit numerous other islands in the Caribbean, including St. Lucia, St. Kitts, the Dominican Republic, and others.  I fell in love with the island life.  Later, after completing a masters degree in Agricultural and Education Extension at New Mexico State University, we moved to Belize in Central America for seven years.  Again, I fell I love with village life.  Life changed and the need to find a suitable place where six our children, now coming out of high school one after the other, pressed upon my wife and me.  We chose south Texas on the Mexico border.  Over the next three years we had opportunities for occasional excursions into the indigenous Tenec and Nahuatl speaking areas of central Mexico.  As our children were making their own choices of what to do and where to live, Linda had an opportunity to finally finish college at the University of Hawaii in Hilo, where we spent most of the last twenty-three years until moving to Arizona this year.

     Twenty years ago, I had to forsake my crutches for a wheelchair, and now I use a power chair.  The present pandemic and my arthritic shoulders keep me home a lot, which may be why I am finally writing this, freer to reflect and ponder past to present.

The urgency to arise against oppression and fight for justice is greater than ever, and that is true globally. 

     Shoghi Effendi, who served as the head of the Bahá’i Faith from 1921 until his passing in 1957, wrote in 1941: 

        "We are indeed living in an age which, if we would correctly appraise it, should be regarded as one which is witnessing a dual phenomenon...The one is being rolled up, and is crashing in oppression, bloodshed, and ruin. The other opens up vistas of a justice, a unity, a peace, a culture, such as no age has ever seen. The former has spent its force, demonstrated its falsity and barrenness, lost irretrievably its opportunity, and is hurrying to its doom. The latter, virile and unconquerable, is plucking asunder its chains, is vindicating its title to be the one refuge within which a sore-tried humanity, purged from its dross, can attain its destiny.  “Soon,” Bahá’u’lláh Himself has prophesied, “will the present-day order be rolled up, and a new one spread out in its stead.”

https://www.legacy.com/obituaries/name/linwood-corbett-obituary?pid=128172996

Friday, October 29, 2021

Work In Progress:  Battle Creek

We travel across the USA on a rainy day
We reach Battle Creek on the third of May.
Students on a journey to learn
About race and prejudice in our city streets.
Richmond, Virginia is where we plan to meet.
(Shhh! Keep it to yourself. Just call it Urban Studies instead.)

In Battle Creek we find Uncle John’s Pancake House
On Michigan 94 and we find out that
It’s rainy in Battle Creek and we are soaked.|
A day to dream and maybe, just maybe,
To find out what Max Weber really knew.

We sit, syrup raised to battle stations,
And wage our pogrom against stacks
Of buttermilk pancakes,
Unaware that corn flakes were born here.

Bellies full and caffeinated, too,
We find out that the Road to Find Out
Is a vast and endless venture of signs,
True and tall tales, and the story of Kellogg corn flakes.

Searching deeper we find Potawatomi and Ottawa
People gathered on the Coguagiack prairie.
Mending wounds from earlier attacks in 1774
To form a village in peace around the lake. 

Here on this Road to Find Out,
the US army saw a chance to gain ground
For eastern settlers to claim the fertile soil.
Holding up food supplies from the tribes,
A theft caused a serious wound and the Potawatomi
Lost their land.  Life is cruel to some;
Trust intruders and find out who’s the fool.

Then came the sawmill and a small log cabin school.
Then a factory to make bricks. 
See how progress comes when the victor knows the tricks.

Freed from slavery Sojourner Truth made her home here
On the Road to Find Out; Battle Creek became a stop,
The underground railroad’s secret, safe spot for slaves
Fleeing to Canada in the north.

Ellen White's Adventists found here a place to convene in 1863:
William Miller had the Christ Return set for 1844,
But had the wrong country as the place to be
As Shiraz was the place he really should have longed for.

Dr. John Harvey Kellogg blended health, eugenics
And the betterment of race;
As long as it upheld a separate but equal face.
A twist to keep races apart with his social calisthenics
Roads to Find Out often took ugly turns and strange ones too.

His hapless brother, W.K., wandered on The Road to Find Out.
He sold brooms in Oklahoma boom towns,
But they were not a place for him to be.
Still a loser, W.K. returned on the Road to Find Out
To assist his brother’s sanitarium. There he chanced to spill
Liquefied cornmeal on a heating device and gave a shout.
He added milk and fed it to residents: corn flakes were born!
“Cereal City” had a destiny selling corn.

On the Road to Find Out we find out that race hate follows
Some white folks wherever they go
Like the time boxing Champ Jack Johnson
Was arrested here for marrying a white woman
And carrying her across state lines. The times didn’t seem to change
On the Road to Find Out.

Thousands of dough boys passed through
For training in WWI and WWII for army life
And prepare for their first taste of combat strife.
Later hundreds of wounded arrived in the second world war
Amputations, Neurosurgery, and plastic artificial eyes and surgeries galore.
Battle Creek was the first American city to install
Wheelchair ramps on sidewalks, ya’all
For the wounded to enjoy downtown life.
Every general knows that war has its rewards.
Train the troops and inter German Prisoners of War.

Wear black skin and the law could stop and frisk. 
That’s the risk one took to enjoy a walk to the store
Or to a park or going home from work. 
Dr. King came and spoke here, as did Muhammad Ali.
The Black Recondos made schools hire black teachers,
Officials too, or every black child would leave the school.
Black bodies filled seats that brought federal funds
And the school board would find what federal money was all about.

We’re on the Road to Find Out.We were on the Road to Find Out.
(At that time, we did not know the history around us
The stories of Battle Creek like layers of fallen leaves
In the rain-soaked ground that surrounded us.)

We sat, syrup raised to battle stations
And waged our pogrom against stacks
Of buttermilk pancakes at Uncle John’s Pancake House
On Michigan 94 still looking for the betterment of race.
Naïve about who wins and who finishes in last place.

C. S. Cholas, May 3, 1974, Battle Creek, Michigan


 


Street Preacher on Leigh Street

Inside city jails, inside city hall
Make wages at the bus line
Haul on to the Silver Coach for lunch.
Taste the honey suckle scent
  As it drifts through the humid afternoons.

MLK Jr. watches
From a large poster on the living room wall.
Packing books now; a new approach and call
For a family man of four
Whose wife is seriously a clown;
   A professional clown.

Ease the nerves, humor the tired eyes,
Give to children a joyful surprise
Make some funny sense out of Richmond
Clown face to deflect the social lies.

The street preacher studies in Virginia Union halls
His heart firm with God and his mind justly wise
In a city split by segregated walls
His voice a fiery call for the just to arise.

Street preacher’s firm face a godly fire for Truth.
Sweet teacher’s Clown face a godsend in smiles.

                                                C. S. Cholas
                                                May 13, 1974, Richmond, Virginia
                                                Remembering Rev. Linwood and Mary Corbett

 Rev. Linwood "Bishop Benjamin Israel" Corbett Sr.

 

 


Monday, August 16, 2021

 

Wyoming – South Dakota State Line, May 1974
 

Desolate flats, some said, a vast grassland cleared of buffalo
To make room for a giant rabbit reserve.
(Maybe barrenness is what we deserve.)
Here Wyoming and South Dakota intertwine;
Where wind commands the seasons, pollen, and snow.
Still sacred to many as a godsend divine;
If an endless prairie is a windfall for all,
Then we are in heaven and wind is our brother,
Where, if the welcome signs did not greet us
We would not have known one state from another.

                                 -- C. S. Cholas, May 4, 1974

Sunday, August 15, 2021

 


A Day in the Life of America in the Time of the Pandemic

The afternoon deployments of Coca-Cola semis
Depart from the truck yard in the time of pandemic.
I watch from the empty hotel parking lot as they pass:
The long, red trucks; reinforcements headed
For the front lines of the battlefields of a thirsty America
Now relegated to third class by a virus embedded in its soul.

A rare jet passes overhead, with few seats filled,
As the news says few are flying during this global ill
We, too, sit and wait for our chance to escape.
We expected to head north by the first day of Spring.
A late snow and the virus killed our plans to run away.

Life abruptly stopped.  Time lingers on
In its time-honored way,
Though much slower than yesterday
Which moved slower than the day before
And so on into the hurried past.
Why did we move so fast?
How cluttered our lives used to be.
Now we stretch with wonder.
Was all the rush just a blunder?

To pass time, I take a daily stroll outside our Days Inn door
For an intake of Vitamin D.
How barren and lonely a vacant parking lot can be.
It conjures up a ghostly air,
As the eerie hum of a gentle breeze
Whispers in my ears, the reckoning’s near.

Today’s sunlight sprays a sense of strange hope about to begin:
Something great and powerful in the quiet dawn hovers here.
       Perhaps Christ coming down in the clouds,
       yet there are no clouds today.
Should Christ appear now, it would only be in the minds of men.
The trees celebrate the cleaner air.
Birds replace the drone of planes with confident melodies.
The sky is bright, the earth is fair.

Yet in this rare dream there is also fear.
That hails the Promised Day is near.

-         C. S. Cholas
January 1, 2020 Tempe, Arizona

Wednesday, March 24, 2021

Remembering Meredith Magoosh Begay

 

Being with Meredith Magoosh Begay

 For my sharing this week, I came across this short video of my dear friend and mentor, Meredith Begay, who was the first "documented" member of the Mescalero Apache Tribe to embrace Baha'u'llah.  As a new Baha'i youth, I had the bounty to stay with her and her family in Mescalero a few times.  She shared a number of native prophecies that talked about a promised time of unity that corresponded to the time of the Baha'i Faith.  In her later years, she suffered from kidney disease and was on dialysis, but still cheerful as always.  Attached is a photo of my last visit to her with my parents and Roshan. And her dear husband, Keith, is in the photo, too.  Keith as Dineh (Navajo).  

The first morning after a restful night sleep, I had some coffee and fried bread, then went out to check out the area.  Meredith told me that there was a fairly new Baha'i living near her and suggested I might want to visit her and her family, which I did.  Then I found a nice flat rock in front of Meredith's house that had a nice view of the area all the way to White Sands in the desert far below.  Out of nowhere a man jumped out in front of me and exclaimed, "I'm Apache, aren't you afraid of me?"  Before I could answer, he was already laughing, and we had a nice visit.  He was a neighbor of Meredith, and, yes, she had told him about Baha'i. 

 On another visit in 1970 I was invited to accompany her family to search for trees to be used to make a tepee.  The tepee was to be used at the 1st Mescalero Baha'i Council Fire in the early 1970s. The choice of the trees had to be fairly perfect for straightness, height, etcetera. I was impressed how quickly the right trees were found in the forest, cut down, branches removed, and the trees loaded into a truck and taken to Head Springs where the tribe had given permission for the Council Fire to take place.  Later we went to a special site in the mountains for a healing ceremony for tribal members who were serving in the military in Vietnam.  It was held after sunset on a clear, starry night, as the Mountain Spirit Dancers moved and chanted around the large fire. Sparks shot upwards from the flames in the crackles of the fire.  

 A young Mescalero man stood by me and told me to look at the incredibly old woman who was dancing alone by the fire very solemnly.  He told me that that old woman remembered Geronimo and others from when she was young.  He said she knew many things about the culture that were being lost, but she was not sharing them because she felt that her people had lost respect for the old ways.  

 He told me also that there is a belief that an old Apache spirit couple still roams the area, and sometimes people feel them close by. That gave me chills, because a few weeks earlier I had been returning from a trip to Arizona to visit Baha'i friends. I used crutches back then and I was hitchhiking and made it to Carrizozo having been lucky to have caught a couple of rides. One was with a Christian youth worker who took me from Mesa, Arizona to Socorro, NM.  Then a guy in the Air Force offered to take me to Carrizozo with a stop at the Stallion Missile Range near White Sands (that he emphasized was off limits to civilians like myself).  At Carrizozo, my driver dropped me off at an all-night truck stop at the south end of town on the highway that went to Alamogordo where I was staying at the time.  I had a poncho and a shoulder bag with a change of clothes, and essential bathroom supplies and a few Baha'i pamphlets to give out along the way. 

 It was in the middle of the night when I left the truck stop to catch a ride on the highway, but seldom did a car pass, and I kept walking until the lights of Carrizozo were far behind me.  The sky was so clear that night with enough moonlight to make the land seem to glow. I must have walked several miles and only 2 or 3 vehicles had passed either way, none stopping for me.

 I was not worried, yet I did not want to think about walking the entire 59 miles to Alamogordo. The highway went along the western edge of the Mescalero Apache Reservation. At one point I heard what sounded like a baby crying and after listening intently realized it must have been the moan of a cow.  The highway crossed a dry culvert, and it was there I had a strong and strange sensation that an old Apache couple was nearby.  I stopped on the bridge over the culvert listening. I got brave enough to bend over the guard rails on the bridge and look below to the gulch. No sounds, just a very real feeling of this couple close by.  I may have called out; I don't remember.  I prayed silently and then started walking again.  It seemed the couple was gradually drifting toward the mountains.  It was eerie, but not in a fearful way. 

 When I could no longer feel the couple nearby, a car coming fast from Carizozo sped by me and then stopped, backed up and asked me to get in.  He had been at a party and had been drinking and his driving felt a bit too fast for comfort, but I had a ride home and felt relieved.

 I kept the story of the old Apache couple to myself, dismissing it as my imagination.... until that night in Mescalero around the fire with the Mountain Spirit dancers dancing to protect Apaches fighting in Vietnam, and the old woman keeping the secrets of her people, and the young man next to me by the fire telling me that there is a belief that an old Apache spirit couple still roams the area, and sometimes people feel them close by.

 Mescalero Head Springs Council Fire 1970
            Holy people from the mountain, Spirit people
          Coming near the fire where we pray and talk.
          Mountain people, Holy people from before the horses’ time
          Approach like vapors, like lucent spirits touching us.
          Holy people, Medicine people from legend days
          Who live with shadows amongst the pine.
          Two spirits, one old couple, who knew streams
          Now dried to gulches, watch from the shadows
          Of piñon and Ponderosa pine

 

 


Meet Mr. C, an unexceptional, run-0f-the-mill common man whose life is mostly behind him. His usually tedious life has been one of working hard only when he had to for the shortest time possible and daydreaming what could be if he only had the guts to act. Mr. C has been fortunate to have a wife who keeps him well fed and appears to listen to his routine complaints about the world.  Now retired, Mr. C has reached a point in his life when he realizes it is now or never to break out of his ordinary, ho-hum existence while he still can and experience life from a different perspective. He has taken two years of pondering the pros and cons of exploring a new life from a new place, before finally filling up his mobility van with a few belongings and a full tank of gas. And on a particularly unspectacular day, Mr. C heads out with his loyal, but skeptical, wife in their rusty mobility van through the canyons of Colorado to the warmer deserts of southern Arizona.  What Mr. C does not know and cannot begin to understand is that in his new surroundings something has changed: he enters a world where few cars and trucks move along the streets; a world where jets and the vapor trails behind them no longer stream across the almost too blue sky above him; where the seldom seen pedestrians wear garments that must have come from a 1950 Sci-Fi film. The birds and the eerie breeze break the silence with their own private conversations.  As Mr. C arrives upon his new landscape, he still believes his new life will be his long-awaited well-deserved and comfortable holiday he has always hoped for.  What Mr. C will soon realize, even if it is beyond his capacity to apprehend, is that the days that await him are not taking him to a relaxing vacation but are towing him into the Skylight Zone.

During the pandemic sometime in April 2020

Sunday, December 1, 2019





Teaching Story—Cuba, NM 1973

First of all, back in the 1970’s and 1980’s US Highway 550 was State Highway 44 and noted for many accidents. In fact, there was a popular bumper sticker driver often displayed on the back bumper of vehicles that stated: “Pray for those who drive 44.” 
Per Wikipedia: “In the late 80s and early 90s the accident rates began to increase which prompted New Mexico Department of Transportation to upgrade the entire road from Aztec to Bernalillo from 2-lane to a 4-lane-divided over a several-year period at a cost of $312 million, and once construction was complete NM 44 and NM 544 became an extension of US 550 in 2000.  

Our family lived in Durango, Colorado back then and we regularly made the drive on 44 to visit Linda’s family in Isleta Pueblo and we were aware of the need to drive carefully on that mischievous road. The café in Cuba (Probably the Cuban Café) was a nice stopping place to make a restroom and food stop.  

In 1973 the National Spiritual Assembly for the United States arranged for a National Bahá’i Youth Conference to be held in Oklahoma City.  A number of youth, including myself, in the Four Corners Area, were eager to attend. A dear Bahá’í named Tom Powell, who was living in Aztec, New Mexico at the time offered to provide transportation in his camper pickup. It was a long ride from Aztec to Oklahoma City, but the excitement of attending a youth conference with at least one thousand or more youth from around the country gave us the energy to endure the trip in the back of Tom’s cramped camper. 

The Conference was everything one could want in a spiritually uplifting affair.  Hand of the Cause of God William Sears was one of the featured speakers, and special guests, Seals & Croft, were among the musicians performing during the event.

I don’t actually remember who, besides, Tom, did the driving to and from the Conference, maybe his son, also named Tom. I do recall that when we reached Cuba one the returned trip, Tom was too tired to drive the last ninety-five miles without a rest. We pulled into the parking area by the Cubana Café for Tom to get a few hours of rest. It was in the early hours of the morning before dawn and those of us in the camper hull were asleep. 

Around six a.m. Tom woke us and said that the café had just opened if we wanted to get something to eat before heading on home.  Groggily, we slowly sat up as Tom opened the door to the camper shell.  One of the youth from Aztec named Harry woke up very animated. Harry, who was of a small build, recounted a dream that he just had. In his dream Harry had gone into a restaurant and, sitting at the counter stool, began teaching the Faith to the person who sat on the stool next to him. The person was very open and interested in the Bahá’i message. Harry’s dream moved him to want to find someone to teach in the café.

I think there were four or five of us.  We entered the café and Harry immediately saw there were empty stools at the counter. No one was seated in any of them.  Harry said, “I’m going to sit at the counter, and you can find a booth,” and he promptly sat down on the middle stool while the rest of us took a booth within watching distance.  As the café had just opened.  We were the first customers. Gradually a few patrons came in and took booth seats. Harry still sat alone in anxious anticipation. He ordered some food with the counter waitress and we ordered breakfast from the booth.  About the time the food was being served, a large, tough looking Navajo man in work clothes entered the café and immediately took a stool on the right of Harry.  Harry gave us a quick, nervous look, as if to say, “Now what?” The man looked as if he might have once been a heavyweight boxer who had lost a few fights.

The new customer ordered something from the waitress.  He spoke just enough words to make his order and nothing more, nor did he take any notice of Harry.
We could see Harry nervously glance at the big man a few times, as the man’s breakfast arrived.  Halfway through the meal, Harry finally had the courage to greet the man.  We could not hear the conversation, but Harry was speaking to the man and the man was giving Harry his attention and conversing with him. A few minutes later, we watched Harry reach into his backpack and pull out a stack of Bahá’í pamphlets and give the entire stack to the man. The man graciously took the pamphlets, arose, shook Harry’s hand firmly, paid his bill and left the café.  We sat amazed. 

Harry rushed to our table with the story.  He said his heart was beating rapidly with a sudden surge of fear when the man sat next to him.  He thought about skipping the teaching opportunity rather than risking rejection, but the power of his dream made him decide to keep his commitment to teach someone in the restaurant. With a silent prayer in his mind, he got the courage to greet the man, who simply nodded without a reply.  Harry told the man that he was just returning home from a Bahá’í youth conference about the Bahá’i Faith.  The man expressed interest to know more, and Harry gave him a short introduction about Bahá’u’lláh and His Teachings. Harry told us that the man lived far out on the reservation and he told Harry that these Teachings were good, and he knew many families where he lived who would be interested.  He asked Harry for information, and Harry gave me the pamphlets. 

In the afterglow of the teaching encounter, happiness rushed though our limbs. We commended Harry for his courage and determination to keep his promise to fulfill his dream.  The time riding in the camper on the last ninety-five miles was as joyous as the time at the Youth Conference in Oklahoma City. 

We had no way to know what happened to the stack of pamphlets that were carried out to the middle of the Reservation by that gentle man: if they were shared and if shared, did they reach open hearts and help them in some way on their spiritual journeys. It was in God’s hands.



Sunday, September 8, 2019




Two From Wyoming



            SNOWGEESE

That night at Two Moon the frosted air lashed our faces;
Our ears seared by the muffled pleas of snow geese
Snared by the wind on the far side of the lake.




            PRONGHORN

Pronghorn at Old Woman Creek.
Not many-- no -- just a few near cattle.
They graze on the brown grass, calm and untroubled;
Ready to dash in every direction.

--C.S. Cholas 1975, Wyoming